I walk this world alone,
by my own choice this has been.
I held my heart back,
For I was afraid to feel.
Always holding myself beyond everyone,
I look down on this world as if from a star.
Afraid of being hurt,
I never let anyone fully in.
But I made a mistake,
I dared to dream.
That this world could hold more for me,
That I could be part of the warmth I saw.
But my fears held me back,
Never letting my soul show.
I let slip of my strenght,
and someone came in through a crack.
Now that is gone,
Possibly never to be found again.
Forgive me my love,
I never wanted to cause Pain.
We have had some good times,
for which I would never giv
What remained after the hope has died,all the shattered dreams, the forgotten plans.
After Life, Death, Joy, and sorrow all faded.
After the forgotten past, and the present.
After everything in this forsaken word went away,
Was of all things,
The Future
Here I sit,
day after day.
body pulsing,
feeling like,
its tearing,
falling apart.
Here I sit,
day after day.
everybody around,
happy, laughing,
while I
sit painfully.
Here I sit,
day after day.
people looking
through me.
never understanding
my pain.
Here I sit,
day after day.
tears inside
sliding down
as always
never seen
I walk this world alone,
by my own choice this has been.
I held my heart back,
For I was afraid to feel.
Always holding myself beyond everyone,
I look down on this world as if from a star.
Afraid of being hurt,
I never let anyone fully in.
But I made a mistake,
I dared to dream.
That this world could hold more for me,
That I could be part of the warmth I saw.
But my fears held me back,
Never letting my soul show.
I let slip of my strenght,
and someone came in through a crack.
Now that is gone,
Possibly never to be found again.
Forgive me my love,
I never wanted to cause Pain.
We have had some good times,
for which I would never giv
What remained after the hope has died,all the shattered dreams, the forgotten plans.
After Life, Death, Joy, and sorrow all faded.
After the forgotten past, and the present.
After everything in this forsaken word went away,
Was of all things,
The Future
Here I sit,
day after day.
body pulsing,
feeling like,
its tearing,
falling apart.
Here I sit,
day after day.
everybody around,
happy, laughing,
while I
sit painfully.
Here I sit,
day after day.
people looking
through me.
never understanding
my pain.
Here I sit,
day after day.
tears inside
sliding down
as always
never seen
I look at you,
I take my knife and put it in your hands,
the tip to my chest.
I trust you with my life,
you taught me how to trust.
You taught me how to live,
so my life is yours for the taking.
You showed me so many things.
How to see the good in people again.
You taught me about hope.
You taught me how to see,
the world with brand new eyes.
You taught me how to be happy.
But when you left, you forgot
to teach me how to forget about you.
I kneel down to the ground.
Placing my palm against the ground.
Closing my eyes.
I whisper, I love you.
Bringing my hand back up open.
I study it, following the lines.
I remove my knife.
Swiftly I bring it across my palm.
Wincing in pain, I clench my fist.
In rapt fascination, I watch.
As my blood drips between my fingers.
Slowly dripping to the ground.
My blood is quickly absorbed.
By the hungry ground.
I feel my life ebbing and mingling.
With the energy of the earth.
Closing my eyes again I sigh.
There is nothing I can say.
But there is things I can do.
Leaving part of me in the earth.
I speak to the ancient powers.
Wat
Dougal looks into the bowl of water before him. Raising his hand he lets a few drops of his blood drip into the water. He doesn't have to do that, but it makes it so much more effective. Siring the water with his right hand he closes his eyes and concentrates calling forth an image. Soon a wavy form appears in the water. With a cold look on his face he says without emotion. You lied to me. The lips on the form move silently. Dougal takes a breath and lets it out. I don't want to hear your excuses, you did not have to do that. The figure waves and moves some more. Quiet he spits. I don't ca
I open my eyes
I see you flitting around
trying not to be seen
But I feel you.
I know you there.
You cannot hide.
You are dimmer
than I remember.
not as bright.
and smaller
drawn in upon yourself
hiding....
your image flickers
in turmoil
something bothers you.
speak to me
tell me your fears
I am here for you
My eyes meet his across the room,
his eyes narrow slightly.
Putting on a fake smile,
he tries to talk to me.
My eyes flash with amusement.
he tries so hard,
but I can see,
what hides behind.
He sees me as a threat,
to all he pretends to hold dear.
)ne to unravel,
his carefully laid plans.
He sees in me,
someone who is smarter,
stronger and faster,
and better looking.
He fears me,
with good reason,
because he knows,
I am better.
Happiness....
Determination....
why are those together? I don't know....
I'm half asleep.....
Pain...
despair....
Anger....
the heat, is blistering.....
deeper...
deeper...
sadness....
sorrow.....
lost.....
so much feeling....
me....
inside....
nothing....
blackness...
cold....
why...
I don't know....
I don't like it....
I stand here.
Looking at the world.
No emotion crosses my face.
No flicker of recognition.
What crosses through my mind.
None shall know.
There are many things.
that will never change.
I am one of those.
I will not waver from my path.
I was here before you walked.
And I will be here after you are gone.
I have seen the rise of many things.
And I have seen the fall of the same.
I have seen life.
And I have seen death.
Time flows around me.
I stand in its eddies.
When everything is gone.
Know that I will still be here.
When all leave you.
I will forever stand.
After all is said and done.
I am what you can rely on.
story writing experiment by DracoLumina, literature
Literature
story writing experiment
Dougal ar strae Laoch looks at the woman standing before him, smiling slightly he lets out a low chuckle, "You amuse me love, but remember, this is me you are talking to." Shadfaltea glares at him, "I just want you to leave.", she spits out. "Why are you even here?" Dougal, still smiling, gets a little bit of a sad look in his eyes as he responds. I just wanted to see you one last time to say goodbye. Shad responds, I don't care, just get out of my life. Dougal sighs, pulling out his dagger he puts it into her hand with the tip of it against his chest. If you want me gone so bad, then you know how to d
When someone enters your life,
that is so special that they touch your heart.
Someone who, in your eyes,
has no visible flaws.
Someone who Loved you,
the way you imagined it would be
When Someone that special leaves you,
do you ever really stop loving them.
I can't help but believe,
that I will never let go.
Of the love that I feel,
for the one that left
My heart will always belong to them,
don't get me wrong.
I am happy and living my life,
I am becoming the person I know I can be.
And even tho I go out,
and I meet other people.
I will not forget them,
I know I could be happy.
But I believe that,
it would not be the same
So things didn't pan out very well for me over the last few years and I am now in a position to work on me and to get some things in my life strait. I had thought about drawing again and doing some digital art, but well I have so many things I want to do I don't have time for it all. Still wanting to do the chainmail thing and do it as I have time, but its slow going, the whole I got to have money to live kind of thing. So what I am doing now is tying to pick up web design contracts. So if anyone needs a web designed shoot me a message and mayhaps we can work something out.
Dracolumian
Well its been a while since I been on here, crazy at work and at home. Gearing up to try to set up a shop at MTAC this year, I have 3 months to get everything ready. So that means new things to come soon. Working on a project for stepdaughters outfit so that is to be completed first, and then after that I will be mass making necklaces, earrings and such.
Peace out
Dracolumina